"Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free." – Jim Morrison
To be honest, that’s one of my favorite quotes ever… because there’s so much truth in it. It’s also one big reason why I agreed to attempt South East Asia’s first mega escape: The Impalement Cage which was designed by my manager, mentor and stage partner.
As I currently poke at my keyboard in bed, I can’t believe Friday’s come and gone… I just did 2 stage shows back-to-back as two different organizations booked me for my One Gal show this evening, one close to 9PM and the other at 10.15PM. Traveling was a big b*tch because traffic isn’t entirely smooth on a Friday night. and what’s with all the $@# ERP charges till 10.30PM!?!
Seriously. After everything was over, I’d completely lost my appetite to eat. You know how it gets when you’re just way too exhausted, you’re not the least bit hungry anymore? Yeah. That was what happened.
By the time I was done with the final show, which had a big crowd, I was so beat (I had a long day which started early) and just wasn’t feeling up to heading to the Ministry of Sound, to join the Queenies and their other halves to party at the club. Frankly, I’m deeply tempted and I’d rather be in the company of my darling Queenies now than be here all alone. But it’s times like these that I need to remind myself about being a responsible adult, since we all have intensive stage rehearsals at 10AM tomorrow till early evening. Bummer. Well, at least I’ll be meeting my Queenies for dinner tomorrow when we’re done at The Arena.
These gals are my rock. Insensitive men can break your heart and make you cry. Girl friends are forever.
My work schedule next week is a total killer. A show preview for a big MNC client at the very start of the week, studio recordings, video editing, another media interview, 3 back-to-back customised one gal shows on a single day, two extremely important illusion shows the day after, another two basic illusions in the evening with J C Sum at the end of the week… gosh. And the strangest thing is that most people probably think we don’t do much and only work during showtime. Like hello, there’s still training, blocking, rehearsals, and more, honey!
Nothing can be further than the truth. We’re so busy, we’re practically up to our ears with work and unfortunately, no one else in the company’s got as many gigs than I have. Nobody will completely understand how impossibly hectic my work schedule is right now, or my struggles and weariness, and I still haven’t even highlighted the on-going stuff happening for Magic Boutique & Mighty Magic Factory! *sigh* It’s not easy being an entrepreneur. It’s really not as glamorous as you’d imagine!
Anyways. I honestly hope to get a good break soon, to get away from everything and everyone before the sneaks in August start for Ultimate Magic @ The Arena. I so need some ME time. Alone time. A good quality break for rejuvenation so I’m in top form again. I haven’t had the frikkin chance to juice up my batteries even after last Saturday’s big event at Clarke Quay.
I’m not apologizing if I sound like I’m whining a lot in this post. This girl is only human. So bite me…
…And while you are at that because you actually think that you’re more perfect than me and everyone else around you, I’m going to ignore you and simply teleport into my fantasy island in my dreams… G’Nite!